I'm dark skinned and my friends make me feel ugly:(?

I'm 14, black, Live in London.. Um well boys in London (my age) seem to think light skinned girls are better than everyone else especially mixed raced girls. Yeah my friends will say I'm pretty but sometimes that's not enough I have never had a boyfriend or even a boy tell me I'm beautiful (apart from my dad) I know boys aren't everything I dont want a boy to fit in I want a boyfriend to make me feel special. When I go out with friends boys won't even look at me I'm just an outskirt while everyone is swapping 'bb pins' I feel like I'm ugly? I honestly try to forget about all this and get on with life but I can't? I know I'm young but these things happen and I feel like I'm going to be single forever.. I've never even kissed a boy apart from truth or dare which doesn't count. I do try my best talking to bogs but they don't care.. My friends sometimes don't realise that they reapply hurt me.. They said 'no black person can get as dark as you' and I'm crying inside but I can't tell them that theyre hurting me because I know I will look like an idiot. Even if boys do like me it's only when you can see my boobs ( not properly) but a vest top or something and that's not the attention I want. I honestly know I'm not ridiculously dark but that's what u feel. Does anyone know what I'm going through or give advice? I feel like dying sometimes :( thanks for reading this x